That's right, I exist again!
Many people in my life recently have commented lately that I am smiling a lot! I have had comments from people that I don't really have much to do with and they say I have changed, I am not afraid to say "Hello" anymore. This enlightens me and I feel pretty bloody awesome about it especially because they are third party people, I have a sense of being again. I have my individuality and decision making back, confidence!Sacrifice
I would be willing to give up part of my individuality to be with someone else and "sacrifice" things in life, but only if the person I am with would do the same for me. This although is conditional, if that were to happen it would be to in a way that gives each other a sense of being. That way each day is a new page in life where anything can be possible, thats a relationship I would love.
New Relationship?
I don't want a relationship at this stage in my life because I just got my personality back and I want to keep that personality. When I am lucky enough to find that special someone and keep my personality, that's not too much to ask? Maybe they have found me and its a matter of time for me to heal before I can enter a new relationship. Only time will tell, the future is the most important thing in life! It could be a fairly long time so I don't want that person to hold onto hope for the future, but to know that the future is full of limitless possibilities. I won't disclose who I am on about so don't ask, its just an insight to my thoughts which I know can be helpful.
The Future is full of limitless possibilities
Yesterday I came to a conclusion that really changed my perception of any of the skills I am working on in my life. It happens a song sums this up good "he was born to shimmer, he was born to shine" - Shawn Mullins
Basically I am thinking: Your perception of what tomorrow can be with your knowledge is the building blocks of hope for today! I have lots of hope and actually believe in myself. I want to shimmer and I want to shine!
I actually believe in myself, its weird I used to think I could do things. Now I know in my heart that I have the potential to build my dreams into reality, I am starting to love life because of this!
Bring on life's challenges!
*Just a disclaimer If you decide to take this blog the wrong way, I implore you not to as its not about you its a blog about me.
