Desensitizing... I think I was becoming like this. If someone said yeah there was a group of teenagers at the local shopping center having a brawl. I am not surprised, I am not disgusted. An event like this does not surprise me. Hence no big reaction.
I don't want to be like this anymore so I am changing where I can so when someone says a teenager was stabbed last night I will be surprised and will react in a way that will get emotion and a reaction. In my life emotional reactions are becoming less and less. What's a society that will not be sensitive to whats happening in their own backyard? This world is not going in a negative direction, not through my eyes. I have hope.... hope in others. Faith is something I have in allot of the people I have met in this world. Faith in their being, in the possibilities that they are creating. This creativity I respect and honor, I respect it because I can see that whatever it is that this person is doing is greatly cared for with passion from their heart. Honor because some of the things that I see people do, great things that I could hardly imagine happening in a modern world. Bill Gates donates a ridiculous amount of money towards some fund, wow... next to no reaction. Imagine for a minute what 0.01% of that donation will do to one life, I would not mind betting their reaction will be that of great magnitude of happiness that average people in the modern society could not even produce. We need hope in this world... we need leaders.

Leaders... there was a great point on the radio the other day as I was eating breakfast. Where are our leaders? What do politicians do? Lead. If so they are not performing anywhere near as good as our leaders of the past. When have heard someone say a crazy idea and thought that's impossible. What if, what if it was possible. What if we had a leader who said lets create the most amazingly beautiful city in the world in one of the Australian deserts, what if this possible. No red tape, no limits. Sure you could say its unsustainable we would lose billions. Imagine you had thousands of average people helping towards this vision to make it possible. Once you have an idea and have followers who will passionately support you where possible, anything is possible. Don't give up hope, start something. Be a leader! What have you got to lose, better yet what will you gain from this? Finance? No, you will gain what matter most. You could gain hope for others, you could be honored.

Love life, don't hate it. If my life was so bad that I was contemplating killing myself, I would live just to see tomorrow. There are so many talented people in this world. When you find them and watch their progress and how they shape people around them, you can see the magic in life. The spark of life, creativity.

Art... I don't know what you think of art. I believe art is like taking a camera into someones imagination, being able to capture just one frame of a dream. This is the most amazing creativity in the world to me. I am looking at my background at the moment of a wolf by Tigershark (deviantart.com user) the level of detail put into this world is absolutely amazing. Another that I was obsessive with was Final Fantasy X-2 artwork and CGI (Computer Generated Imagery) movies. Wow... the amount of creativity and imagination is mind blowing. I just cant help but respect the people that create that kind of material. It is inspiring!

Well hello there...

IBM Solo

They have set me loose, I am now solo at IBM. Will probably still be training in a sense since I will have heaps of questions until I get the swing of things. Enjoying it at IBM, it has boosted my confidence a fair bit in terms of communication. Met some great people which are joyfull to be around. So overall its a generally a positive experience for me. This job is defiantly developing me as a person. Hopefully I will be able to give my 2 cents later on in life to help out in IBM.

UoB

Yesterday I registered as a student at the University of Ballarat. I am doing a course known as Information Technology Professional Practice. Its quite interesting on of my books is development and knowledge in Professional communication and how we interact through 'communication'. So it goes mainly in detail into speech mainly which coincidentally I am developing my communication skills through my job at the moment.

I joined the Student Association which enables me to drink lots and still have $ in the bank :P. No but its going to be good because I can go to events cheap through being a member, can't wait Hilltop Hoods are playing soon which will be ace!!! Can't wait.

Friends

I can already see some friends are drifting away where I cannot go, although its reassuring that some of my friends make time to come and see me whilst I am working and basically living half at my girlfriends place. I think that is quite special, its great! I hope I can repay the favour someday. There only visits at random times but hey it bloody awesome to see them.

Tamara's 19th

Tamara's 19th is coming up should be interesting got a match of Laser Force coming up, drinks and a night out on the town clubbing. Should be pretty good, looking forward to it. I think I'll be drunk pretty much on one beer/shot, absolutely stuffed from working out at tam's and work. This is defiantly not a bad thing :) enjoying working out and work. So should be a good night! Hopefully post some photos if I get into my usual camera crazy mood.

Random Thoughts

The basic is the 'cup half empty or half full' has been raised to a new level in this society <---> what in the *@*% has gone wrong this time lets do a dance and bitch about it for half hour or oh bugger I think something went wrong there better get that fixed up hey :)

Society is becoming so random and scary in some social networks, It is quite disturbing because their affect on other people in this world is going to be quite negative. But hey what's it matter right... its the nature of humans. Something has to be defined right? Good or bad? We need a balance, good and bad are one means of creating that In our lives.

Good or bad, I am not sure... I sometimes say "ohh that's not right" when I disagree personally about a topic. I wish I didn't, imagine a world where no one said this is right this is wrong. Only don't do this because or that's horrible? I'm not sure... the point is nature takes care of itself. What does that mean boris? Let me explain.... Do you think all the kids roaming the streets that have absolutely screwed up lives would be destroying things if there was a direct affect? My point is this world is evolving into something where morals and respect are finding harder to find as a large. People are still out there, so many I trust and know I can trust with my word and morals. Respect!

Life is what you make it, enjoy it! If your not get yourself in a position where you can. It'll make you happy and others.

A new year, a new beginning

At the end of 2007, I was lucky enough to be given a provisional offer through the REEP Application into the University of Ballarat. The offer is for Information Technology Professional Practice, this seems like a dream come true as this is my passion. Strangely I am not as excited as I thought I would be at getting into the course, I am not sure why this is. Maybe it's because I am being pushed further and further away from one's I respect and admire, my friends throughout Kindergarten, Primary School and College will always have a place in my heart and soul. All my values and what I stand for are all built upon every person who have come into my life. I cant express how much I appreciate everyone in this would being apart of my life.

Family Visit:
Kate my sister came down to visit for our family Christmas and to catch up, Thor (her boyfriend) came down and he is a classic. Great bloke! Kate took us (Tam, Thor, Jane and myself) to the races in Melbourne was awesome. I won enough to buy everyone drinks and a few bits of food. Our family Christmas was good, Tamara came down to Melbourne to enjoy the moment as well.

Welcome to 2008 my friends and what a year it is going to be!
To kick start my year I am working, woo hoo. I am working at IBM doing Call-center stuff at the moment and enjoying it very much!
I cannot believe how big IBM is, there are many companies I have researched and formed views on. IBM is one that I have not done so in depth, you don't have to look deep to find the vibe. If any of my friends are reading this they will know I am obsessed with a gaming company called 'Valve' this company in my eyes are like architects who are forming a unbelievable passionate community who love what they do. The company is simply a legend, creating a virtual world where anyone can create sound or visual entities. If a group of people do something amazing they notice, they do something about it, the company has worked with average blokes teaching and helping with their knowledge how to make that talent something special. Even bought their ideas, employed them and said have fun basically. IBM is a bit like Valve they are expanding but they are in touch, ideas and creativity are a reality. If something is not so good and there is room for improvement IBM has the processes in place to be able to evolve basically.

Wye River Holiday,
Yeah I know a holiday already and only just began work, Tamara's family go down to Wye river for a week so I tagged along with Tam. Had a great time swimming nearly every day, some good waves. I am thinking when I get some time I'll try learn to surf. Had an interesting conversation at one of the stores in Torque about Surf boards with a worker, he was telling me how one of his friends cuts the boards into three pieces and turns them into chairs and that the top of the surf board is "absolutely awesome for your back and your shoulders just sink into it perfectly." Caught some crabs on the beach there, John (Tam's brother) wanted crab meat and nowhere sold it so we ended up catching crabs. Did not eat them in the end Josh (Tam's younger bro) and I went back to the beach in pitch back and let them free. He had a conversation with me on the beach with I respected and thought not many people in this world would put themselves in the concept of an animal. He showed me that the world still does have passion, 'imagine if you were a crab and these big giants just took you away from your home, away from your family, how would you know how to get back home?'. If everyone thought like Josh the world would be a greater place.

Whats new?
Well I bought a new bike Trek 7000 its a bit heavy but its great. Going to use it for work, hopefully get used to getting to bed early and getting up at 5:30 for bike rides. One of the new years resolutions Tamara and I have is to get fit. So I want to get right into bike riding again. Maybe even get some mates riding doubtful but the thoughts there. Bought Tamara a PC for $20 not bad hey! It works, with screen! Its set up with a decent keyboard and mouse. That's about all that's new... I have an obsession with Skype I have bought $16 credit for it and well hey I love it. 2.7cents per minute to United Kingdom to my cousin, cant complain. Looks like in the future I am getting wireless broadband and a Skype phone. So cheap its not funny.

Philosophical thoughts (This might make more sense to other, because I don't know where it is coming from just random thoughts):
The eyes of a human can tell a thousand stories, the eyes of a human are not capable of lying.
You can tell when someone is losing their spark, their eyes go dull. Keep your eyes alive, thought creativity and imagination.
Most of all keep a burst of uncontrollable happiness in your eyes!

Last but not least have a good one!!!